My Love Growing Inside Me

I have my Love growing inside me

My womb is a powerhouse, a creation plant

I am so content with you, Love

Satisfied that you have chosen me

So long ago... so long before I even met him

Long before I felt prepared...

I told you, the Universe I was ready

It was my strength's edeavour to squash my fear

Maybe I am not ready

And neither is he

We are not happy in this relating

I don’t want you to be a part of it

A part of the fights, and arguments over nothing

Name calling ... finger pointing ...
emoting and not lovin...

I want you to feel the Love of a father

I want you to learn from a man to be a man

I know you chose him, but he mightn’t be around?
I want only the best!

Baby, as a man, u must understand,

I need to feel like a woman

I need to feel loved and protected...

Be provided for

And, as a person, you must understand, I need to feel love unconditionally

Loved for me, Loved as I am

You do not need to work to receive Love

You don’t need to change yourself or your partner for Love

For Love just is

For Love is our very essence, the air we breathe

And where you cannot breathe [Love] - there is no life

No breathe, No inspiration

No God, No Goddess

No Love, no Life, no Peace, no Joy

You, my boy, deserve all the above ... and more

My boy, forgive me, I let you come now

It is my fault I opened my womb and made that choice

Baby, please forgive me

We will be reunited when mama sorts her relations out

When mama elevates her energy and what it attracts

When you and your sisters have a house to call home

Community to call family

Love that is steadfast

I am taking a life, so that I may gain one

Hurting my Love so that I may heal mine

... Yet, one question remains, steadfast in my brain

... why can’t I give YOU the Love I so deeply desire?
So naturally deserve?

?!?!?

Written : 2012-02-14