Am I trying to punish him?
Maybe after all is said, and done
I just wanted him to feel the pain of betrayal
I wanted him to know how it feels to have your great
achievement come crashing down
... Because your Lover is not strong enough ... doesn’t love you
enough!
Ohhhhh, the pain!!
You know how it feels to hurt in a place you cannot touch?!
Cannot soothe?!
Then , have to forgive - you must forgive!
... the way I
forgave!!
And, what if you don’t?
You'll fall into the pain of holding too much inside
Then rise to the pleasure of projecting it out..
You must feel it ... all!!!
You must hurt and cry and cry ... cry again!
What if the plan backfires, then who have I hurt?
I don’t mind hurting him - I WANT to hurt him!
Subtly it’s clear, though, I’m also hurting me
Hurting the unborn baby growing wombside
Moreso hurting even the innocent girl I was,
the little girl who continues to live inside ...
I stopped being the best woman I could be
the day you stopped doing the best for me
The day you stopped being the best man you could be
Written : 2012-02-14
"Can't let you get the best of me!"
"I de mek him suffah!!"
Yet, the Goddess whispers to me, to breathe, let it go
Give my best for the sake of Love
For the sake of Family
For the sake of Me
For the sake of Inner Peace
My desire to punish him continues to linger - just not at the expense of our unborn baby
Woman get u some, let it out!!! Lest the pain, anger fester n spoil you inside!
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